The air thickens to that of a thin sheet or blanket, then it starts whipping about, like it’s either offering protection or attempting to smother you. Then you smell it, the scent you can’t quite discern, it’s almost pleasant, but definitely not putrid, slowly it gathers til you can nearly taste it and make it [...]

I had the most fucked up and awesome dream ever! I had paid behemoth to fly to Indiana and play at the Murat (no I don’t know how I got that kind of dough, but in the dream it was $25k cash and I paid it to them backstage after the show), and then for [...]

Friendships are frail and interpersonal relationships break all too easily. I’m making new friends, broadening my social circle as it were. The downside being that as I grow as a human being, I’m leaving some old friends in the dust. Not intentionally, just a crevice that was always between us grew to a canyon. Be [...]

There is no happy ever after, but I think I’m doing a better job of going after my share of the pie this year. I’m on OkCupid trying to be more social and out there, I’m setting all social interaction, with new friends, family, and old friends too, at a higher priority than anything else. [...]

I see you girl,
Moving from bed to bed
Still can’t find the right fit
No Sealy sleep pad
No memory foam
They don’t remember you.
And after you leave, neither do you
Your like a princess, and the pea
You keep stacking up the beds, hoping that
Some amount of padding will save you from the pain, oh the pain…
But it won’t, you [...]

So there’s this guy I know, let’s call him Mario for this instance. Regardless what you call him, he’s a chemistry teacher, he’s half Jordanian, he was baptized in the river Jordan, and yet for some reason, he thinks the most interesting thing about him is a patch of facial hair on his upper lip.
I [...]

Dessa, one of my favorite artists, recently released a new album, it’s called “A Badly Broken Code”, it’s amazing. Anyways, on it, there is a song titled “Mineshaft II”. It starts out, “15 years from tonight you have to make a decision, the greatest love of your life is gonna call during dinner, from the [...]

If I sit and wish
In one hand and
Then squat and
Shit in the other…
The latter might
Get warm and full
But the hunger,
Oh the hunger…
Only to satiate
Never to give up
Never to hate
On the one hand…
On the one hand
Which once seemed
Empty and desolate
Will reside them…
They that will be
The friends and aquaintances
The lovers and family
Carrying my belongings
A peddled suitcase
Filled with [...]

It’s time for a change in my life, my physical appearance, my vehicle, my job, my living arrangement, who I am as a person, something’s going to change in the next year, and in the first part of it. Living the way I have is simply insufficient, dull, and dumb. It seems I’ve given up [...]

Then you’d be in a different place tomorrow, today, and for the rest of your life.
Enough philosophy, its been a long time, and thus its time for an update. First off, I am still working at Walmart and I’m still just a lowly cashier. Second, on a happier note, my birthday party as hosted by [...]