Dessa, one of my favorite artists, recently released a new album, it’s called “A Badly Broken Code”, it’s amazing. Anyways, on it, there is a song titled “Mineshaft II”. It starts out, “15 years from tonight you have to make a decision, the greatest love of your life is gonna call during dinner, from the home of the girl he’s living with now……”, then the man in the song proceeds to ask her (Dessa) for forgiveness.

“Forgiveness is huge…” as the song says, which is oh so true. I’m sitting here now, and I realize that I’m quite the forgiving person; in fact, there are only two people I still hold a grudge against. The most fucked up part about it is that I like to call these two people “mom” and “dad”. I simply cannot bring myself to truly forgive them for the shit they put each other through, the shit they put me through, and most importantly, the shit they put my sister through about 10 years ago. The shit I witnessed, the things I was manipulated into believing as a kid by my manipulative father and equally manipulative mother, the things I said and did to each of them myself as a product of feeling… lost, alone, I still can’t to this day even explain how that whole fucking mess made me feel. I should probably see a psychiatrist, lord knows that’s definitely when my issues started, the reason I am the man I am today, and absolutely the reason why taking relationship advice from either of my parents is abso-fucking-lutely something I will never do.

I won’t go into details what happened, but the fact that one or both of them aren’t either in prison or in a mental institution is fucking amazing to me, even to this day. Furthermore, the fact that both of them are still together, well, those of you that have seen them together can attest to the miracle that is….

Anyways, just thought I’d share…